Be Brave

What does it mean "to be brave in knowing"?
Being aware of the truth and of the reality of different issues is not a simple job.It is not easy to accept the truth which is different from what you have thought at that time. Sometimes, what is the truth is deconstructed whatever you have made for as an element of your identity. Is it easy to destroy everything to get the truth?
It is the way I am guessing now. I am not prod of it and I am disgusted about. But particularly in one recent year I feel I prefer not to know the "truth" of stuff. I am afraid of the truth. I am here to confess that I am afraid and it is not something I am proud of...
I think it is true about everybody. We see people who start to mocking, insulting, screaming and on and on when they encounter something different their ideas, their beliefs and their actions and practices... These refectory reactions is because of afraid... They do not want to encounter something maybe ruin their past actions, beliefs and behaviours. They are not brave enough to accept that they have done wrong and they should change their style.
Unfortunately, these reactions happen unconsciously and we just get frustrated or mournful or hatred when we see or hear something different from our thinking. When we start to insulting, mocking, frustrating, ridiculing and etc. it when we are getting that this new stuff seems better, more logical, more rational, more beneficial but we can not accept... This CONSCIOUSNESS'S and AWARENESS make us angry and we start shouting... we open our mouth and lock our mind...
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I should confess that though I have always been skeptic about the accuracy of my beliefs and thoughts and challenged them all the time, I am not brave enough to hear something different from my structures. I don't open my mouth and shut my mind but I feel frighted extremely much... I am not powerful enough to challenge new truth... I feel so week to encounter something to destroy my system of present thoughts...
I am sad very much about this matter but my mind and my soul is weaker than to tolerate so much pressure on something which have constructed my identity; mu identity regardless of true elements or false elements...

Now, I perceive by all my mind cells that what is the exact meaning of "be brave in knowing".
And I am who have written for many times that "my greatest pleasure in the world is the pleasure of awareness and consciousness"

I am not proud of the status I stand now...